Wednesday Weigh In

Im wondering if the 30 day shred is supposed to be 30 consecutive days... Because I just have not been consistent with doing it...if I dont have a soccer game, Im going to watch Camilo's and after his games by the time we get home Im spent... BUT I HAVE TO TRY... Tonight will be my challenge... after we get home from his game tonight Im going to shred!! I weighed in today.... I lost 1.4...so in 5 weeks I have lost 5 lbs!! They give you a little sticker with a 5 on it too its really cute... anyway... the leader asked if I had goal in mind... I said I was just doing the 5% for now...and she said "well you're pretty close to that so keep me posted so we can send in your paper work..." I dont know what that means about the paperwork... but being close to your goal feels very niiiiiiiiiiiiiiiice!! I think it will give me more motivation to lose that 3 lbs before next weeks weigh in, except Ive never lost 3 lbs in 1 week... so I dont want to put too much pressure on myself.... Does that make me sound like I have excuses?!?!

I need to get pictures off of my camera to show how lovely my babies are...Cadence held Emma's hand the other day during a thunderstorm, telling her it would be ok... how cute is that?!?! She is a great big sister... I hope this love continues forever...Emma is not potty trained completely yet... she has days where we ask and she tells... then she'll just have an accident... and because of the inconsistency we are forced to keep her in pull ups during the day when my mil watches them... and I definately think thats holding her back... but she's doing us a favor in helping us out so I cant really say much... her hands are full! Other than that... she is such a pleasant kid... I dont know if Ive mentioned it before but 2 is the best age I think... not that my Cadence isnt at a good age... but the discovery age is simply hysterical... Cadence the other day said "mom that bunny freakin' scared me"... ahhhh what a proud mama moment!! Watching what we say and what we listen to...really comes into play... Emma's speech skills are pretty clear which is nice so there isnt much of that frustration of not knowing what they are trying to say.... Lando Commando, is another pleasant baby to be around... if he's crying its because he's pissed that he's being ignored, lol... he loves attention.. and"coughs" if you arent giving it to him... he is eyeing up food that we are eating... Im hoping he can hold off another 2 months before we have to do solids though... Camilo's job is not looking so good right now.. HR apparently cant do anything for him... heres crossing our fingers that something good will come of this... we arent bad people, are we?!?!

Another week....

Got weighed in today at WW... down .4...making me 148.8 (gasssssssp) not the best BUT I cant be too hard on myself either... I know I didn't put in the work necessary to get the results I want... I have not been shredding everyday, but I think that playing soccer will assist in the process... its not holding me back but I still need to do it!! Find the time... make the time... I did take measurements and I'm down on them as well!!

I did QUASH (Quest to Unravel Alzheimer's Scavenger Hunt) on Saturday and ran in the heat around Philadelphia... I really would like to visit one day where I dont have to race anywhere!!

Monday night I had an outdoor soccer game and scored my first goal!! I was excited!! What made me feel even better about being out there playing was the fact that Camilo was there supporting me. He said I played surprisingly well and I look like I belong out there with the rest of them. Because he has been playing soccer all of his life, that truly does mean a lot to me.... I was def nervous I would be disappointing him and his name... I shredded last night, still a toughie but I am really hoping I stay consistent with it this week...

Landon rolled over from his tummy to his back for the first time this week... Yah for milestones!!

Heard some good news about Cam's job too... the principal REALLY wants him to stay so he is doing everything possible, along with his mentor, in order to keep him.... they are going to meet with HR to see what the possibilities are... its refreshing to know you can be so good at something when its an unexpected career choice.... I always knew he would be good at whatever he put his mind too, but its just convincing him of that...

a brand new day

Landon has his 4 month well visit yesterday and lets just say, I don't even know where these months have gone... I still vividly remember the night he came into our lives, so I definitely need to get that written down before I forget. So he is 15lbs & 26 inches, which puts him above average for his age. I would like to know where these other babies are they are getting the info from... I don't think he looks like a 'big boy' like i kept hearing at the doctors office... but I am very protective when it comes to that... like don't call my kid fat ok!?! OK vent over... He is a healthy baby boy cried like hell when he got his shots... but got over it very quickly... he is a social butterfly.. he loves attention... smiles at everything in view... he has already begun to be tortured by the girls... with dress up clothes... he will be upset when he gets bigger, lol!

Cadence is a very good big sister... she is helpful and loving to Landon and Emma. But boy oh boy she has been a not so good listener lately... its upsetting to question yourself like "what am I doing wrong as a parent?" but I'm starting to learn that she is a kid and I cant expect perfection with her, I just don't want her to act like that when I'm not around and have someone else say "oh my gosh shes bad" because I know she is not a bad kid... she can become very difficult at times but 99% of the time shes the BEST!!

Emma... oh my Emma! Shes a trip... I love this age so much... its so funny to see them learning new things and trying new things... we are still potty training with her... she decided to head to right field one day and we haven't had a consistent day with her since. She will pee (or poop) in front of you and giggle about it... and her lil' chubby cheeks its like whats the next step... how do you fix this behavior?!

Camilo has been so supportive with me and my weight loss and making sure I get the time to do my workouts... its been a nice change because usually he'll do his workout and by the time he's done I'm not in the mood to do mine... but we've learned to balance it out where we either take turns doing it... or he takes one for the team and he doesn't complete his... I do feel bad when he doesn't work out... but his metabolism and weight stuff is not as difficult as mine... he could not work out for months then go run 6 miles... he's a pure athlete!!

Me... last but not least... its been 3 weeks since Ive joined Weight Watchers and I have lost 3.6 lbs! I must say my first weigh in I was upset that I didn't lose more... but I'm realizing like they say in the Biggest Loser... its the small accomplishments you have to celebrate! My first weekend on WW we had a party for my sisters birthday and this past weekend was Memorial Day weekend and we had a small gathering... I did pretty well with keep an eye on how much I was eating... but not being a Nazi about it either... This program really does allow you to still live a normal life....I'm still doing the Shred... switched to level 2!! Man... she can kick your butt... I'm not giving up though...  Ive only done 10 days worth though... so I technically have 20 more to go! I have been walking around my court with my mother in law every night practically as well... and if I didn't do my shred (like last night) I walked... I start outdoor soccer tonight... oy vey... I can only imagine how hard Im going to be on myself after this... I have to learn to stop worrying what others are going to think about me and do me, for ME!

PS: Im loving my new friends... I feel like I can count on them and we've never even met! Its nice to know you have someone to confide in, besides your spouse! <3

Healthy Start...

Ive done the shred every night this week so far, and even after last nights workout we all went for a walk in our court. The shred is TOUGH... and I wanna give up but i feel like Jillian will be so mad... so I suck it up and keep going... I never thought the combination of jumping jacks and jump rope could be so rough, but if it'll give me results then its all good!

I started Weight Watchers yesterday with my mom... I am very excited to eat proper portions lets just hope I dont decide I can do it on my own, without the meetings... Im allotted 31 points for the day (bc im breast feeding) and so far at 1:37 in the afternoon Ive consumed 10 points...

New Start

I am going to update as often as possible, even if no one is reading. There are many things that are on my mind through out the day and not many opportunities to talk to someone about them so why not get them off my chest through the power of the word!

We are now a family of FIVE!! Yes I said 5... and everyday Camilo and I look at each other in amazement because the things that aren't planned are the best surprises! Cadence just turned 4 (April 21), Emma is 2 (Jan 2) and 'hadda baby its a boy' Landon 4 months (Jan 27)... We are complete (for now, lol) there is nothing etched in stone but we are def done for now... three years and 1 day will be the next time babies are discussed (tenure) BUT I am still looking for a job in teaching, being where I am, just isn't going to pay the bills forever, especially since 'its not the right time for raises'. Camilo got a letter stating they will not be offering him his contract for next school year bc of all the layoffs that's happening. His mentor seems to think they will change their minds but until then... hes out of a job for next year, which now means we have to find health insurance for at least the kids...

I am on a mission to get in shape so hopefully posting it up here will get me to doing what I should be doing instead of making excuses of why I'm not... I started day 1 of my 30 day shred with Jillian Michael's... I felt good after it... wanted to wake up today to do an early morning workout but fell asleep last night and wasn't prepared for this morning... Ill workout when I get home today, before dinner... (because my friend told me you metabolize food faster after your workout...thanks Tab) I need all the metabolizing help I can get.

Overall, Our family may not have it all together, but together we have it all!

WOWZA!

(27 weeks)

(28 weeks)

Well of course Im a slacker and have not updated in a while... so I'll try to remember what I should.... As of today I am 28 weeks pregnant with our little surprise baby. I have been feeling great... the baby is a mover and a shaker thats for sure... as of right now Im starting to feel as though the baby has less room to move around so Im feeling the bigger/harder movements that brush across my belly. Its such a nice reminder that I am carrying a baby made out of love by two people... the whole idea of it all still amazes me.... My sil actually asked me the other day if she could watch this delivery bc she has never seen one... I know with Cadence we had a room full of people, and with Emma it was only Camilo and I... with this baby Camilo said he would like it to be just us again... but who knows what we will decide... I dont mind I guess but I would have to think about it...

Cadence is still a mama's girl and Emma is still a daddy's girl... but they move tend to have their moments where the other parent will be just fine for them as well... They are both such good kids I couldnt ask for anything more from them. Cadence can have a bossy attitude at times... but has beene expressing her feelings very freely... she'll say "that makes me so sad" or "thats not fair"...its really cute when she says it and Im glad she uses it when its appropriate.... such a smarty pants! Emma is starting to get into the have to wear a dress everyday stage like Cadence was in... which is fine but will take some a.m. clothing choices for me to get used to... she used to not care now she'll tell me 'no....princess' so again... dealing with some primadonnas! BUT... they get along well I forget about the little temper tantrums they will have at times.

Camilo is a teacher! He started teaching middle school math in Bridgeton in the beggining of October... adjusting everyday and trying to reach out to the kids who have no interest in doing well at all.... its a farm town where they are all illegal so they have no care about 'what will happen' after school... good thing he has patience (at times) bc I think I would have a bit of a raised voice a little too often....

I still am looking for a teaching postion... I did just get a job doing an afterschool program in Vineland, its a section 8 program so its a safe haven for kids to do their hw quietly and use the computers... Summer is a full-time thing so that should be interesting... apparently I'll have to develop a curriculum and lesson plans for 3 different age groups... plan field trips... plan meals... but heard that from the other teacher I work with not the boss herself... so we shall see...

Religion?!?!

I'm trying to be a good person and go to church but I really am way too ignorant on religion (don't tell my religion teacher... but it was Judaism... so it may not count) Anyway... we had Cadence 'dedicated' to an Assembly of God which is pretty much a non-denominational Christian church... but by the time I got pregnant with Emma... they were closing their doors because of the lack of people and money coming into the church... Needless to say my poor, now middle child, has not been to church nor even considered for a dedication or any of that... I have not been too busy on Sundays to go but I just don't know where to go... whats the difference between a Methodist church and an Assembly of God... is there one?!?! I hate feeling so dumb on this... but I blame it on my parents for not enforcing it more when we were little... I was baptized Catholic and I made my Holy Communion... I don't know what Camilo has done apparently in Honduras everything with Religion is different.... I feel like I cant go to the Catholic church because of not making my confirmation but really Id rather not go to a Catholic Church at this time because of childhood memories of it always being, sorry to say, boring... I need some religion help.... but be nice!

Ultra sound update

After waiting patiently in the waiting for for over an hour, and feeling VERY out of place... I got to see the baby in my belly!!! As soon as the tech put the doppler on my belly the baby was RIGHT THERE.... and the best part was he/she was bouncing around in there... we were giggling because we were amazed at all the movement so early... Everything looks good with a due date of....dun dun dun......... February 2, 2010... making me dun dun dun.... 13 weeks 4 days.... I'll upload the u/s pic at home and post it on here.... everytime I look at the picture I keep saying "its a baby" I so thought it was only going to be a kidney bean right now but Im so glad it wasnt!!

Heartbeart

I had a dr's appointment yesterday with the OB... typical, answering of all the questions, how are you feeling? Lets go over the survey you had to fill out... stuff.... Then she says, it may be still too early but lets try to find that heartbeat.... I got giggly... she searched and searched... and alas... there it was... behind my loud heartbeat, you could hear baby S's!! Its REAL!!! LOL... I go tomorrow for my ultrasound to see exatly when Baby S will be here!! Ta-ta for now!!

Emma's 18mth well....

My sister-in-law had to take her because Camilo and I were not able to take off from work.... she said she cried some when she got her shots... I hope she remembers what they were... She is 25lbs 12oz. putting her in the 75th percentile for weight and shes 31.5 inches tall putting her at average. My little chubby checker... but I'll be honest thought she was gonna weigh more! Im ok with that!!

Well, well, well

Its been a while... a reallllllly long while... I finished up my student teaching experience, recieved my certificate of eligibility to teach, graduated from college with a Masters Degree and stayed home with my girls for a few months after so I would be able to enjoy some sahm quality time with the kiddos!! We didnt do much but it was just nice to know I didnt have to wake up to go to work and leave me babies...

Cadence turned 3 in April, and is now potty trained! One day we went to the supermarket, we bought her some pull-ups and the next day she was going on her own!! Thank goodness... its so nice to know she CAN do it.... (Emma of course now wants to try as well... so hey bring on no more diapers!!) She is just the best thing anyone could ever ask for, for your first child.... shes a great helper to me and Cam... shes an awesome big sister to Emma... and she has manners

Emmita is still my chubby checker... loves doing everything her big sis is doing... since Cadence has been potty training Emma thinks she should too, so she'll come into the bathroom with us and try to take off her diaper and say 'pee pee'... she has her 18 month well visit in Friday... lets just hope shes not too chubby for them, we all love her chubby thighs and belly!!

And now for number three!! We have just announced to our friends and family that we will be adding yet another addition to our family and despite some reactions we get, we're happy!! Its a little too late to start thinking about half the stuff people bring up when you announce you are pregnant! We have two other beautiful surprises that worked itself out, so this in turn will work itself out as well.... we live each day on love and staying positive... we cant let negativity bring us down....

Camilo is still working at Susquehanna Bank and Im still at the insurance office, but we are both crossing our fingers that teaching jobs come along for us soon!!

Where do I begin?!?

Again it has been way to long for any updates... I have been quote busy with student teaching which is almost over and I cant wait... not because I dont like it... just because I really am so excited to have my own classroom! I filled out my papers for my certification today and he said I would be able to take the middle school english praxis and be able to teach middle school english!! Not that, thats what I am really gung-ho about but its anothe boost in the right direction and will get my foot in the door faster than just being what I have now...

Anyway... my girls... Cadence is doing fabulous... I mean besides the fact that she has temper tantrums galore when I pick her up from my mil's! I get told she doesnt like me, go away... its a nice feeling when im sooooo excited to see them and thats what I walk into!!

Emma is doing fab as well... shes like 20lbs... crawling, pulling herself up taking steps when you hold her... Im sure she'll be walking before shes one... which AGGGH will be in a month!! I cant believe that...

Oh gee!!

we went to the Camden Aquarium (courtesy of my new friend Nicole from student teaching) we had a great time but sure glad I didn't have to pay for any tickets....

Camden Aquarium! (cell phone pics)

Update update update.... where do I even begin?!?! I'm still student teaching (40 days tomorrow = 35 days left!) We went to SC for a wedding... it was a nice time to have some alone time but of course the girls were on our mind the WHOLE TIME!! It was nice to put make up on, where a dress and feel pretty!

Cadence is still my favorite first daughter... she is more and more independent and just loves Emma with all of her little heart. She is speaking more Spanish and its definitely a plus to have her know it BUT its upsetting and frustrating to both of us when I cant tell what shes saying... I can figure out most of it but the new words shes saying from being with my mil all day I'm having the most trouble with... We bought her a big girl bed (which she barely sleeps in), along with Princess bed sheets and comforter. Still not potty trained but we arent trying either...

Emma is still my favorite second daughter.... she is active now and has 3 teeth with another pushing its way out!!... she too loves Cadence as much as her little heart will let her and its so awesome how she lights up when they see one another. She has her check up before Thanksgiving but hopefully I will be updating about her before then, lol......

mix match

It has been 24 days since my last confession...... I have been busy as a bee... this teaching thing is not as easy as people may think... There's more paperwork and not enough teaching and learning which stinks... I have taken on 3 subjects plus morning routine which consist of attendance and lunch count... Monday I'm doing Spelling... so its getting a new subject each week is a good adjustment... Its just weird to think in 2 weeks I'll have all but Math to teach. This is definitely an experience and I'm making the most out of it no matter what.



Updates:

- Cadence: is now 29 months & 6 days old. She is maturing so quickly I cant stand it but there isnt a magic potion to keep her this age forever. She has ringlet curls that are a pita to comb through (unless there is globs of conditioner in it)....but look so pretty on my lil' brunette baby girl. She is still not potty trained but we arent trying either. She is an acrobat... no fear of anything... climbs and jumps from anywhere she can... she sings and dances every chance she gets too so I think christmas gifts are going to consist on asking for money to sign her up to dance or do gymnastics...she speaks Spanglish and can say curses in Spanish too...., such a proud mommy!!
She loves Emma just as much as you would hope a 2 year old was capable of.... they both react so happily when they see one another... it melts my heart....
- Emma: is now 8 months 3 weeks & 4 days old. She finally has 2 bottom teeth... shes not crawling but is mobile some how... she is never in the same spot you leave her... she is doing great being at my mil's all day... shes been having more real food lately to keep her from not being hungry during the day since shes not taking formula...or ebm.... she makes kissy noises which also can be mistaken for a 'clucking' like noise... but if you 'kiss' she does it back..
- Cami: still working at Susquehanna and Depot. He isnt thrilled about either one but he's doing it without complaints. He is handling me not getting paid very maturely doing 2 jobs and still helping out alot around the house so he is an awesome hubby to have. His b-day was the 20th so we had people here for his dads 50th b-day but Cam's friends were invited. It was a very quiet night which seemed to be ok with him.

My camera is sill broken so i don have any pics to add.... = (

The journey has begun....

Tuesday was the first day I had to leave the house without miss Emmita behind my seat in the car!! I had a teachers in service to start off the school year but it also kicked off the start of my ST. It was nice to see my old teacher I had for a seminar class... she is the superintendent of the district and was happy to see me giving me a hug and even told the principal that I'm a hard worker and will not be disappointed...so that's a positive on my side!!

Today was the first day of school for the kids, and boy do we have an awesome bunch!! There are 24 kids on our roster with 5 of them being taken out of class... but we all seem like we'll get along just fine. This week will pretty much be a whole lotta rule learning but next week will be when lessons will be done...

Emma hit the big 8 month point so her update consists of her still being...... fab-U-lous!! We finally got the girls pics done and they turned out so well it was hard to choose.. She isn't rolling over or crawling but when she sits shes been reaching far enough to get her foot in the crawling position and sometimes will end up on her tummy... she has been eating baby foods like cereal/fruits/veggies/cookies... I have been just feeding her in the morning and when I see her again when I get home from school...

Cadence is doing well... she has been even more excited that Emma goes to Luly's house with her because she loves her so so sooooooo much.... Her Spanglish is getting more prominent so Im hoping she'll still be able to have a conversation with me ya know?!? Anyway she is still Fab-U-Lous as well and I have 2 of the most amazing girls anyone could ever ask for...

All in all...... Success has been had these past 2 days!!

No More "Coby's"

Many people know these 'coby's" as pacifiers, but my neice called it a coby one day and we've been calling it that ever since...

Well its official.. my baby girl is growing up... she no longer uses her 'coby'!! Its bittersweet because as much of a pita is was to take it from her when she didnt need it, or looking for it when it falls out of her mouth in the middle of the night... Im sad that that part of my baby is gone!! Ironically we couldnt find it one day going home from MIL and she hasnt used it since... I told her that the coby fairy came and took it away to give to all of the babies who need them and since she was a big girl she doesnt need it!! I dont think she really understood 'everything' i was saying BUT its working!! We are in the process of getting her a Big Girl bed (which is also bittersweet... ) and that will be her present from the coby fairy!!

JACK JOHNSON

AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! OMG OMG OMG!!! He touched my shoulder!! LMAO....... He is the most genuine , REAL PERSON, you could ever meet. And when I say he's only a person, he is... he is using his celebrity to do something good with it and is never to busy to shake a hand and thank the people who are helping him out with the things he wants to accomplish but just cant be everywhere at once. I will upload the pictures as soon as I'm home they are downloading the my computer.... He walked up to everyone in the village green and thanked them for being there doing what they were doing... and me (the dork I am) hopped up and down clapping and say "YAH, I love what you stand for" as if he just went pee pee on the potty for the first time... BUT he looked me in the eyes and said "no problem.." and giggled" Oh how I love him...

So the reason I was able to meet Jack (we're bff now, I can call him that)...was because I signed up on his website to be a volunteer for "All At Once" (which is his thing) but they had enough people so I was sent a link for other organizations... I picked Head Count so I would be registering people to vote... We walked around the parking lot and saw quite a lot of interesting people... I was quite surprised for how mellow Jack is people were WASTED tailgating...I must say that registering people to vote was definitely an experience all on its own because some people were offering us beers but others were quite rude like we were asking them for money... or shouted who they were voting for, Des and I could care less we just wanted to make sure we were doing what we were supposed to be doing to get people to take stand in what they believe in and get their voice heard... otherwise they can not complain if they didn't take the time to register and vote! So with this chance to register people to vote we were given Pit Seats (which was crowded and hot and very pushy)... but all in all... I almost cried twice because I actually felt lucky that I could say "I was at a Jack Johnson concert" since he NEVER tours...